Is a 'QUEER OBSERVATIONS' column relevant for the present times?

I am grateful that I have friends who are brutally honest with me. It's okay if some think that friends always have to be supportive. But that support can come in the form of constructive criticism too so that I can stay mentally and physically healthy and don't come off as a fool or stupid idiot.

So when I launched this QUEER OBSERVATIONS column series yesterday, so that queer folks confused about why they are queer or been born not into the so-called "natural sexual order of things" (read: a heteronormative biology), one such friend asked me whether it was relevant for the times.

"Isn't Gen Z, being born into the age of the internet, already aware of the kind of queer issues we are grappling with currently? For example, isn't that why the wives of bisexual and queer men are okay with them fucking their male buddies?"

Another friend answered on my behalf that "no information is redundant and that will always remain as a reminder of how things were".

The countering friend elaborated: "When people forget experience, history repeats itself. It's important to have things of everyday people recorded so that it would be historically significant one day".

I agree.

I cannot forget my gay friends openly crying sometimes in cafes wearing shades to hide their tears while recounting their suffering from so much trauma because they didn't have access to information at the time when there was no internet access in my poor village.

Gen Z is lucky to have been born into the age of the internet. Most of my first teen years of life I was traumatized not only by my own lack of information and experience but because I spent so much time listening to the trauma of my closeted queer friends both local and foreign. I can never forget those terrible times. So I will keep on sharing my QUEER OBSERVATIONS thank you very much.

Queer observations #1

It's a difficult decision whether to smile back at a strange man who smiles at you. He might keep smiling at you for the duration of the period you are at a cafe, if he is a waiter, and then by the time you go to the cash counter, he might have realized that you had no business smiling at him because you are a stranger, and then the self-hatred he has been internally repressing will surface, and it will be directed at you OPENLY.

He will do things like "squinting eyes at you" or "pursing his lips" because that's the only way he can express his hatred towards what he "believes or realizes" that you "triggered" his "homosexuality AGAIN", something he has been suppressing because he believes in religion and therefore by proxy believes it's the Devil who is occupying his mind and "making" him gay. 

Fortunately we have laws here in the US which prevents physical harm so that's the only thing they can do: Cause psychological and verbal "thrashing" at you. Sort of like saying "duke you" if he's pissed off at you while you were playing a network game with you online.

It is possible he might come out of this twisted logic later in his life (like I did) but there's no guarantee. So however much you would like to strike up friendships with "smiling guys", don't. They are not been honestly friendly. It's a "reflex, out of control reaction" to a man they find handsome and sexually attracted to.

Only you will end up hurt when you realize a "friend has suddenly turned into an enemy" for reasons he might never tell you. It's those behavior and actions of him which will indicate to you that he is a repressed gay.

So, as some of my homosexual friends say, it's always better to be friendly towards men who already have accepted their homosexuality and do not keep that a secret from you and will openly ask you whether it's okay if they kept a normal friendship or a sexual relationship with you.

This is still currently happening with me and I expect this to continue until the day I die: There are two guys at a restaurant nearby who are these repressed types. Now they are in the "squinting eyes" stage.

The cashier at a nearby convenience store is now in the "pursing his lips" stage. 

If I didn't have this experience before, today I will feel very depressed, being confused what's happening with people who seemed so friendly earlier but now suddenly have become hostile towards me.

So I now totally ignore these three guys. I don't even meet their eyes. It's best not to look at them because their hatred will only grow when they feel you are still harboring sexual thoughts about them.

ESSAY: Be empathetic towards repressed homosexuals

SOURCE: ChatGPT

It's important to approach the topic of someone's sexual orientation with sensitivity and respect for their privacy. It is not appropriate or ethical to attempt to identify someone's sexual orientation without their consent. Sexual orientation is personal and varies among individuals.

If someone is struggling with their sexual orientation or experiencing internal conflicts, it is crucial to create a supportive and non-judgmental environment where they feel safe to explore their feelings. Encouraging open and honest communication, offering support, and promoting acceptance can help individuals feel comfortable in expressing their authentic selves.

Remember, it is up to each person to determine if, when, and how they choose to disclose their sexual orientation. Respecting their autonomy and privacy is essential. If you or someone you know is struggling with issues related to sexual orientation, it may be beneficial to seek guidance from a qualified mental health professional or LGBTQ+ support organization.

It's important to note that sexual orientation, including homosexuality, is a natural and normal variation of human sexuality. However, individuals who are struggling with their sexual orientation or repressing their feelings may experience certain signs or symptoms. It's important to approach this topic with sensitivity and respect for individuals' personal experiences.

Here are some potential signs and symptoms that a person who is repressing their homosexual feelings might exhibit:

1. Denial and suppression: They may actively deny or suppress their same-sex attractions, often due to societal or cultural pressures, religious beliefs, or fear of rejection.

2. Heterosexual relationships: They might pursue or maintain heterosexual relationships as a way to conform to societal expectations or to hide their true sexual orientation. However, these relationships may lack genuine emotional or sexual fulfillment.

3. Anxiety and depression: Repressing one's sexual orientation can lead to significant psychological distress, including symptoms of anxiety and depression. The internal conflict and fear of being discovered or rejected can contribute to these feelings.

4. Avoidance behaviors: They may actively avoid situations or discussions related to homosexuality or LGBTQ+ issues. This could include avoiding LGBTQ+ social events, discussions about same-sex relationships, or LGBTQ+-friendly spaces.

5. Discomfort with physical contact: Repressed homosexual individuals may feel discomfort or unease with physical contact or intimacy with the same sex. This could manifest as anxiety or a desire to avoid situations where such contact might occur.

6. Low self-esteem and self-acceptance: The internal conflict and self-denial can lead to feelings of shame, guilt, and a negative self-image. They may struggle with self-acceptance and have a distorted sense of identity.

7. Secretive behavior: A repressed homosexual man may engage in secretive behavior to conceal their true sexual orientation, such as deleting browsing history, hiding LGBTQ+ materials, or avoiding conversations about relationships.

It's important to remember that these signs and symptoms are not definitive proof of someone's sexual orientation, as everyone's experiences and circumstances can vary. If you or someone you know is struggling with these feelings, it's important to provide a supportive and understanding environment, and encourage open and honest communication. Professional help, such as therapy or counseling, can also be beneficial for individuals dealing with these challenges.

প্রবন্ধ: হাসি কি শারীরিক আকর্ষণের কারণ হয়? / Prabandha: Hāsi ki śārīrika ākarṣaṇēra kāraṇa haẏa? / निबंध: क्या मुस्कुराने से शारीरिक आकर्षण होता है? / nibandh: kya muskuraane se shaareerik aakarshan hota hai? / ESSAY: Does smiling cause physical attraction?

উৎস: ChatGPT

হাসি সাধারণত কামুক উত্তেজনা সৃষ্টি করে না। হাসি হল মুখের অভিব্যক্তি যা সুখ, আনন্দ এবং বন্ধুত্বের মতো ইতিবাচক আবেগের সাথে যুক্ত। হাসি সামাজিক মিথস্ক্রিয়া বৃদ্ধি করতে পারে এবং সংযোগের অনুভূতি তৈরি করতে পারে, তবে এটি সরাসরি যৌন বা কামুক উত্তেজনার সাথে সম্পর্কিত নয়।

কামুক উত্তেজনা সাধারণত যৌন উদ্দীপনা, কল্পনা বা যৌন উদ্দীপক শারীরিক সংবেদনগুলির সাথে সম্পর্কিত। এটি বিভিন্ন কারণের দ্বারা উদ্দীপিত হতে পারে, যার মধ্যে রয়েছে চাক্ষুষ ইঙ্গিত, স্পর্শ, চিন্তাভাবনা বা নির্দিষ্ট পরিস্থিতি। যদিও হাসি আন্তঃব্যক্তিক মিথস্ক্রিয়ার একটি অংশ হতে পারে যা কিছু ক্ষেত্রে উত্তেজনায় অবদান রাখে, একা হাসির কাজ সরাসরি কামুক উত্তেজনা সৃষ্টি করার সম্ভাবনা কম।

হাসি নির্দিষ্ট প্রসঙ্গে শারীরিক আকর্ষণে অবদান রাখতে পারে। একটি প্রকৃত হাসি উষ্ণতা, বন্ধুত্বপূর্ণতা এবং সহজলভ্যতা প্রকাশ করতে পারে, যা প্রায়শই আকর্ষণের সাথে যুক্ত গুণাবলী। যখন কেউ হাসে, তখন এটি তাদের আরও আমন্ত্রণমূলক এবং পছন্দনীয় করে তুলতে পারে, যা অন্যদের দ্বারা শারীরিকভাবে আকর্ষণীয় হিসাবে বিবেচিত হওয়ার সম্ভাবনা বাড়িয়ে তুলতে পারে।

তাছাড়া, হাসি একজনের মুখের বৈশিষ্ট্যগুলিকেও উন্নত করতে পারে। একটি হাসি চোখ উজ্জ্বল করে, গাল উঁচু করে, এবং সামগ্রিকভাবে আরও আকর্ষণীয় এবং আকর্ষণীয় চেহারা তৈরি করতে পারে। এই কারণগুলি শারীরিক আকর্ষণের ধারণাকে প্রভাবিত করতে পারে।

যাইহোক, এটি মনে রাখা গুরুত্বপূর্ণ যে শারীরিক আকর্ষণ একটি জটিল এবং বহুমুখী ঘটনা। হাসি ভূমিকা পালন করতে পারে, তবে এটি অনেক কারণের মধ্যে একটি যা সামগ্রিক আকর্ষণে অবদান রাখে, যার মধ্যে শারীরিক বৈশিষ্ট্য, শারীরিক ভাষা, ব্যক্তিত্বের বৈশিষ্ট্য এবং ব্যক্তিগত পছন্দ অন্তর্ভুক্ত। অতিরিক্তভাবে, ব্যক্তিগত অভিজ্ঞতা এবং সাংস্কৃতিক কারণগুলিও ব্যক্তিদের আকর্ষণীয় বলে মনে করার উপর প্রভাব ফেলতে পারে।

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Uṯsa: ChatGPT

hāsi sādhāraṇata kāmuka uttējanā sr̥ṣṭi karē nā. Hāsi hala mukhēra abhibyakti yā sukha, ānanda ēbaṁ bandhutbēra matō itibācaka ābēgēra sāthē yukta. Hāsi sāmājika mithaskriẏā br̥d'dhi karatē pārē ēbaṁ sanyōgēra anubhūti tairi karatē pārē, tabē ēṭi sarāsari yauna bā kāmuka uttējanāra sāthē samparkita naẏa.

Kāmuka uttējanā sādhāraṇata yauna uddīpanā, kalpanā bā yauna uddīpaka śārīrika sambēdanagulira sāthē samparkita. Ēṭi bibhinna kāraṇēra dbārā uddīpita hatē pārē, yāra madhyē raẏēchē cākṣuṣa iṅgita, sparśa, cintābhābanā bā nirdiṣṭa paristhiti. Yadi'ō hāsi āntaḥbyaktika mithaskriẏāra ēkaṭi anśa hatē pārē yā kichu kṣētrē uttējanāẏa abadāna rākhē, ēkā hāsira kāja sarāsari kāmuka uttējanā sr̥ṣṭi karāra sambhābanā kama.

Hāsi nirdiṣṭa prasaṅgē śārīrika ākarṣaṇē abadāna rākhatē pārē. Ēkaṭi prakr̥ta hāsi uṣṇatā, bandhutbapūrṇatā ēbaṁ sahajalabhyatā prakāśa karatē pārē, yā prāẏaśa'i ākarṣaṇēra sāthē yukta guṇābalī. Yakhana kē'u hāsē, takhana ēṭi tādēra āra'ō āmantraṇamūlaka ēbaṁ pachandanīẏa karē tulatē pārē, yā an'yadēra dbārā śārīrikabhābē ākarṣaṇīẏa hisābē bibēcita ha'ōẏāra sambhābanā bāṛiẏē tulatē pārē.

Tāchāṛā, hāsi ēkajanēra mukhēra baiśiṣṭyagulikē'ō unnata karatē pārē. Ēkaṭi hāsi cōkha ujjbala karē, gāla um̐cu karē, ēbaṁ sāmagrikabhābē āra'ō ākarṣaṇīẏa ēbaṁ ākarṣaṇīẏa cēhārā tairi karatē pārē. Ē'i kāraṇaguli śārīrika ākarṣaṇēra dhāraṇākē prabhābita karatē pārē.

Yā'ihōka, ēṭi manē rākhā gurutbapūrṇa yē śārīrika ākarṣaṇa ēkaṭi jaṭila ēbaṁ bahumukhī ghaṭanā. Hāsi bhūmikā pālana karatē pārē, tabē ēṭi anēka kāraṇēra madhyē ēkaṭi yā sāmagrika ākarṣaṇē abadāna rākhē, yāra madhyē śārīrika baiśiṣṭya, śārīrika bhāṣā, byaktitbēra baiśiṣṭya ēbaṁ byaktigata pachanda antarbhukta. Atiriktabhābē, byaktigata abhijñatā ēbaṁ sānskr̥tika kāraṇaguli'ō byaktidēra ākarṣaṇīẏa balē manē karāra upara prabhāba phēlatē pārē.

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स्रोत: ChatGPT

मुस्कुराना अपने आप में आम तौर पर कामुक उत्तेजना पैदा नहीं करता है। मुस्कुराना चेहरे की अभिव्यक्ति है जो खुशी, आनंद और मित्रता जैसी सकारात्मक भावनाओं से जुड़ी होती है। जबकि मुस्कुराना सामाजिक संपर्कों को बढ़ा सकता है और जुड़ाव की भावना पैदा कर सकता है, यह सीधे यौन या कामुक उत्तेजना से जुड़ा नहीं है।

कामुक उत्तेजना आम तौर पर यौन उत्तेजनाओं, कल्पनाओं या शारीरिक संवेदनाओं से संबंधित होती है जो यौन रूप से उत्तेजक होती हैं। यह दृश्य संकेतों, स्पर्श, विचारों या विशिष्ट स्थितियों सहित कई कारकों से शुरू हो सकता है। जबकि मुस्कुराना पारस्परिक बातचीत का एक हिस्सा हो सकता है जो कुछ मामलों में उत्तेजना में योगदान देता है, अकेले मुस्कुराने का कार्य सीधे कामुक उत्तेजना पैदा करने की संभावना नहीं है।

कुछ संदर्भों में मुस्कुराना शारीरिक आकर्षण में योगदान दे सकता है। एक सच्ची मुस्कान गर्मजोशी, मित्रता और मिलनसारिता को व्यक्त कर सकती है, जो अक्सर आकर्षण से जुड़े गुण होते हैं। जब कोई मुस्कुराता है, तो यह उन्हें अधिक आमंत्रित और पसंद करने योग्य बना सकता है, जिससे दूसरों द्वारा शारीरिक रूप से आकर्षक माने जाने की संभावना बढ़ सकती है।

इसके अलावा, मुस्कुराहट किसी के चेहरे की विशेषताओं को भी निखार सकती है। एक मुस्कान आँखों को चमका सकती है, गालों को ऊपर उठा सकती है, और समग्र रूप से अधिक आकर्षक और आकर्षक रूप बना सकती है। ये कारक शारीरिक आकर्षण की धारणा को प्रभावित कर सकते हैं।

हालांकि, यह ध्यान रखना महत्वपूर्ण है कि शारीरिक आकर्षण एक जटिल और बहुआयामी घटना है। जबकि मुस्कुराहट एक भूमिका निभा सकती है, यह कई कारकों में से सिर्फ़ एक है जो समग्र आकर्षण में योगदान देता है, जिसमें शारीरिक विशेषताएं, शरीर की भाषा, व्यक्तित्व लक्षण और व्यक्तिगत प्राथमिकताएं शामिल हैं। इसके अतिरिक्त, व्यक्तिगत अनुभव और सांस्कृतिक कारक भी प्रभावित कर सकते हैं कि व्यक्ति क्या आकर्षक पाता है।

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srot: chhatgpt

muskuraana apane aap mein aam taur par kaamuk uttejana paida nahin karata hai. muskuraana chehare kee abhivyakti hai jo khushee, aanand aur mitrata jaisee sakaaraatmak bhaavanaon se judee hotee hai. jabaki muskuraana saamaajik samparkon ko badha sakata hai aur judaav kee bhaavana paida kar sakata hai, yah seedhe yaun ya kaamuk uttejana se juda nahin hai.

kaamuk uttejana aam taur par yaun uttejanaon, kalpanaon ya shaareerik sanvedanaon se sambandhit hotee hai jo yaun roop se uttejak hotee hain. yah drshy sanketon, sparsh, vichaaron ya vishisht sthitiyon sahit kaee kaarakon se shuroo ho sakata hai. jabaki muskuraana paarasparik baatacheet ka ek hissa ho sakata hai jo kuchh maamalon mein uttejana mein yogadaan deta hai, akele muskuraane ka kaary seedhe kaamuk uttejana paida karane kee sambhaavana nahin hai.

kuchh sandarbhon mein muskuraana shaareerik aakarshan mein yogadaan de sakata hai. ek sachchee muskaan garmajoshee, mitrata aur milanasaarita ko vyakt kar sakatee hai, jo aksar aakarshan se jude gun hote hain. jab koee muskuraata hai, to yah unhen adhik aamantrit aur pasand karane yogy bana sakata hai, jisase doosaron dvaara shaareerik roop se aakarshak maane jaane kee sambhaavana badh sakatee hai.

isake alaava, muskuraahat kisee ke chehare kee visheshataon ko bhee nikhaar sakatee hai. ek muskaan aankhon ko chamaka sakatee hai, gaalon ko oopar utha sakatee hai, aur samagr roop se adhik aakarshak aur aakarshak roop bana sakatee hai. ye kaarak shaareerik aakarshan kee dhaarana ko prabhaavit kar sakate hain.

haalaanki, yah dhyaan rakhana mahatvapoorn hai ki shaareerik aakarshan ek jatil aur bahuaayaamee ghatana hai. jabaki muskuraahat ek bhoomika nibha sakatee hai, yah kaee kaarakon mein se sirf ek hai jo samagr aakarshan mein yogadaan deta hai, jisamen shaareerik visheshataen, shareer kee bhaasha, vyaktitv lakshan aur vyaktigat praathamikataen shaamil hain. isake atirikt, vyaktigat anubhav aur saanskrtik kaarak bhee prabhaavit kar sakate hain ki vyakti kya aakarshak paata hai.mahatvapoorn hai ki shaareerik aakarshan ek jatil aur bahuaayaamee ghatana hai. jabaki muskuraahat ek bhoomika nibha sakatee hai, yah kaee kaarakon mein se sirf ek hai jo samagr aakarshan mein yogadaan deta hai, jisamen shaareerik visheshataen, shareer kee bhaasha, vyaktitv lakshan aur vyaktigat praathamikataen shaamil hain. isake atirikt, vyaktigat anubhav aur saanskrtik kaarak bhee prabhaavit kar sakate hain ki vyakti kya aakarshak paata hai. 

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SOURCE: ChatGPT

Smiling itself does not typically cause erotic arousal. Smiling is a facial expression associated with positive emotions such as happiness, joy, and friendliness. While smiling can enhance social interactions and create a sense of connection, it is not directly linked to sexual or erotic arousal.

Erotic arousal is typically related to sexual stimuli, fantasies, or physical sensations that are sexually stimulating. It can be triggered by a variety of factors, including visual cues, touch, thoughts, or specific situations. While smiling can be a part of interpersonal interactions that contribute to arousal in some cases, the act of smiling alone is unlikely to directly cause erotic arousal.

Smiling can contribute to physical attraction in certain contexts. A genuine smile can convey warmth, friendliness, and approachability, which are qualities often associated with attractiveness. When someone smiles, it can make them appear more inviting and likable, which may increase the chances of being perceived as physically attractive by others.

Moreover, smiling can also enhance one's facial features. A smile can brighten the eyes, lift the cheeks, and create an overall more appealing and engaging appearance. These factors can influence the perception of physical attractiveness.

However, it is important to note that physical attraction is a complex and multi-faceted phenomenon. While smiling can play a role, it is just one factor among many that contribute to overall attractiveness, including physical features, body language, personality traits, and individual preferences. Additionally, personal experiences and cultural factors can also influence what individuals find attractive.

SHORT STORY: Who stole my clothes?

To this day, I don't know. And I don't care anymore. All that I know is that such kinds of pranks should not be played even for fun and even if we are so small a society where everyone knows and cares about one another.

But maybe because I am fortunate, an incident somewhat initially appeared as a most embarrassing experience, turned out to be a most erotic occurrence for me as it unravelled moment by moment.

But before I go to details into my story, a little background of where I am from although I don't want to give details such as the name of my country. However, I can reveal that I am from an archipelagic state and the island I hail from is a tiny community of less than 500 islanders. We all know each other quite intimately and there are no secrets hidden from one another. Perhaps this was why the "incident" didn't turn out to be a completely shameful occurrence for me.

I am now 23 years old and this incident in question occurred when I was barely 18. That's right. When I became an adult and all my bodily physical features had blossomed to the stage where I was sexually desirable.

It was the norm in our society to enjoy public showers and skinny-dipping. So everyone was familiar with each other's nudity and quite comfortable about it.

Now about the incident. What happened was that a European tour group had arrived and I and some other friends hired a speedboat and took them to a secluded beach where it was ideal for snorkeling. I and another friend remained on the beach while the rest of my friends accompanied the European visitors on their snorkeling outing.

Then this is what happened: while they were exploring the house reef, I decided to skinny dip because I was feeling horny. I told this to my friend, and took off all my clothes. I then dived into the blue lagoon and decided to swim about for a half hour.

But I was delivered a shock when I finished my skinny dip and returned to the beach: I couldn't find my clothes where I left them. And worse, my friend was nowhere to be seen too.

I was almost panicking when I realized that the Europeans might emerge out of the lagoon anytime now and I will be discovered naked. Up until that time I was comfortable been nude only in my native community and the prospects of been seen nude by some strange Europeans made me real awkward although I do confess that there is some level of eroticism in being nude among complete strangers.

I sat on the beach and waited and after about ten minutes my friend emerged from the jungle. I asked him where he had gone to and he said he had to take a crap.

I asked him whether he had seen my clothes and he replied that he wasn't paying much attention and therefore didn’t know.

Then we entered into a hot argument where I accused him that he must have stolen my clothes because everyone was in the sea and there was no one else around except the two of us. He questioned me why I thought that and pointed out there was no reason for him to hide my clothes.

He started taking off his T-shirt and gave it to me and said that I can use it to wrap around my hips and cover my crown jewels until we get back to the main quay and then my home.

It was a way too short T-Shirt and barely reached my glans. So I wrapped it around as much lower as possible on my hips and then even it did not cover the tip of my cock. I realised then that while sitting in the speedboat on the way back home, I would have to cover my glans with my hand which raised another issue: if my hands kept touching my glans, it will surely result in a predictable erection.

And horror of horrors, that is exactly what happened.

Fortunately or unfortunately, I sat at the very back of the speedboat with three other friends. They were sniggering at seeing my somewhat unsuccessful attempts to control myself from getting a hard-on.

And to make matters worse, it was a bumpy ride as the speedboat tried to struggle it's way through the choppy waves.

With every ridge and trough of the sea, it had the effect of my hands applying more and more pressure on my glans and it didn't take much long for the sensitive tip of my penis to get stimulated by the rubbing on the inside of my fingers and soon I felt the first signs that things will spiral out of control and that I will definitely cum in front of everyone.

Now a wee detail about my dick. In rest mode, it measures 2 inches but at a full blown hard-on it measures a good 8 inches. Yup. I was a lucky dude. With a huge cock.

By this time, my erection was full, and there was no room to hide it, but I made a valiant effort at pushing my cock down in order to hide at least the shaft although the glans was fully protruding, that if anybody bothered to look at my loin area, they would easily glimpse the tip of my penis which now had a huge drop of pre-cum.

Needless to say, by this time, I was dying to ejaculate and I knew then that soon I would definitely reach the "I don't give a fuck” stage where I wouldn't care whether there were strangers around me or not, and my single focus and tunnel vision would be to ejaculate.

So I stood up from my seat and decided to shoot my load into the ocean. But to my horror, just in the nick of the moment, one of the Europeans came to the back of the speedboat and raised his video camera to shoot a shot of me and my three friends.

And to my utter embarrassment, somehow the T-shirt loosened and fell to the floor and I stood stark naked with my huge cock raised at a 90-degree angle, inadvertently facing the camera. It would have been an erotic photographer’s wet dream. Just imagine a completely naked guy standing in front of you with a huge cock with a full hard-on.

And that, my dear readers, happened to be the moment when I finally came.

I just couldn't hold it in. Damn, I didn't even care.

I grabbed my cock, applied great pressure to the base, and waited for the magical moment to shoot the first stock of cum. And it happened that right at that moment, the speedboat cut across another choppy wave, which made me almost stumble. And due to that, where did my first load of cum land? Right on the face of my friend who was sitting next to me, because it happened that his face was level with my cock.

I didn't know this at first because I was too caught up in the moment. It was later I found out all this “sex drama”.

So my concentration was on shooting the rest of my cum load. I pressed my dick's base and I emptied out the rest of my semen in four shots.

I then came to my senses and when I looked around I saw my friend wiping off my cum on the sleeve off his T-shirt which he must have retrieved when I dropped it onto the floor of the speedboat.

I saw that the European dude had turned off his video cam and come towards me.

He replayed the footage for my benefit. I didn't know what to make of it. But come to think of it, I wasn't embarrassed at all that I was caught on camera in my most intimate, private, and vulnerable moment.

Then I saw something which I would have obviously missed because of being caught in the moment of my ejaculation: the whole European crowd had gathered in the middle area of the speedboat which would have offered them a good view of my predicament.

I wondered what it would have been like for them to see a totally nude dude with a huge erection at such close range, and on top of that, to see him cum.

Then, to my great surprise, they started clapping their hands.

I looked around at them, one by one, and saw that their eyes were on me. I realised they were cheering me.

I felt a bit awkward but felt glad they were ok with my circumstances.

I also wondered whether, like other Europeans, they had visited Thailand first and was already exposed to Bangkok's sex industry. I wondered whether they clapped and cheered to the sight of Thai women unscrewing Coca Cola bottles with their vagina.

Therefore, I wondered whether I had inadvertently enacted the first live sex show from my small island community to these visiting Europeans. Most important of all, I wondered whether my simple act of ejaculation was a grand enough show for these Europeans to remember for times to come, and whether I should be proud of my act on behalf of my community.

Anyway, it was time to go home.

Because my friend had retrieved his T-shirt when I had accidentally dropped it on the speedboat floor, and was now already wearing it, I had no choice but to walk home naked.

My home was 10 minutes walking distance from the main quay of the island. While public baths and skinny dipping were common, it would be a completely different thing to walk around the island in the nude for 10 minutes. But since I had no other choice, I decided I would walk home while greeting any passersby as much noncommittally as possible.

Didn't matter anyway because I could walk home naked in my community. And since we were so used to it, I was sure I wouldn't get an erection and that I would reach my home without further embarrassment. Not that there was anything to be embarrassed about because my small community were familiar with hard-ons too.

The Europeans boarded the quay before me. I was the last one out of the speedboat.

They asked me whether I minded taking a group photograph with them.

I agreed. Without any hesitation whatsoever. I didn't even cover my cock with my hands. There seemed to be no point because they already had footage of my nakedness and a cumshot of me. I didn't ask them to delete it because there was something erotic about strangers seeing you naked.

As I walked towards home, I reminisced about the day's events. I decided that it was the most erotic day of my life up until that moment at least.

I passed some neighbours and friends and wondered whether they found me sexy naked. I wondered why in all my 18 years, I had never thought of that before.

As that thought emerged in my mind, I started to get an erection. By the time I reached home, 10 minutes later, it was more than ample time to get a full hard-on. I didn't give a damn. Time for another wank.

SHORT STORY: The bar waiter who hit on me / लघुकथा: बार वेटर जिसने मुझ पर प्रहार किया / laghukatha: baar vetar jisane mujh par prahaar kiya / ছোট গল্প: বারের ওয়েটার যে আমাকে মারধর করেছিল / Chōṭa galpa: Bārēra ōẏēṭāra yē āmākē māradhara karēchila / ކުރު ވާހަކަ އަހަރެންގެ ގަޔަށް އެރި ބަނގުރާ ވިއްކާ ބާގެ ވެއިޓަރު / kuru vaahaka: aharen ge gyah eri banguraa vihkaa bar ge waiter

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